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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2006|03:12 am]
fuck this shit
i'm tired of everything
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my eye hurt >. [Jun. 25th, 2006|12:59 am]
[Current Location |my room duh]
[mood - |blankblank]

my eyes hurt a lot
maybe i shouldn't be on the computer to much eh
i hope i'm not going blind
i had to turn down the brightness on my computer screen
maybe i'm turning into a vampire 0_o
er k so lately i've been up to nothing
well i have been hanging out
but now i'm bored
and yeah
a few days ago i hung out with bianca, mariah and parker.
dan and eric were also here.

eric likes me.
i've known it for a while since dan told me long ago and eric also told me himself
at first i was freaked out since he didn't really know me...
but now its like w.e
i don't know if i like him or not...
i like this other guy...
hmm but he doesn't know it... and i haven't seen him in a long time
'cause hes in this gay band
and hes too good for that band
kay i'm done babbling
good night =]
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soooo... [Jun. 20th, 2006|08:58 am]
[Current Location |my room]
[mood - |cheerfulcheerful]

life's been good lately. my dad moved back in =D
its like old times again only better.
the only thing missing to make me happier is hanging out with my friends
which hopefully will happen soon since we still need to have our cereal party lol
also trips to tacobell =P

this weekend i went to my aunts house in long island.
i spent like 4 hours in the pool
it was too cold to stay in longer.
then i watched my aunt clean her hookah lol

today is dan's birthday
we're all hanging out at his house first. some people are going in the pool.
then afterwards applebees

i'm not sure what i'm doing tomorrow yet.
sometime this week me, franky, dorothy and some other people are going to coney island
yep ♥
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oww [Jun. 14th, 2006|12:22 pm]
[Current Location |my room]
[mood - |happyhappy]
[music - |My Chemical Romance- To The End]

i'm in pain
i walked too much yesterday lol

and i'm really tired because i stayed up last night until 3am doing my sister's hair and eyebrows for her dance today
she looked so happy and it made me happy =]

oh and my dad is moving back in today =D
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its too cold =[ [Jun. 12th, 2006|10:38 am]
[Current Location |my room]
[mood - |sleepysleepy]

i'm too tired and i don't feel like going to school today
but i have to
and i have no idea what i'm doing after school
i think i'm going to arby's with andrew
and then i don't know what i'm doing.
i really don't want to leave my house though
and my hair is taking forever to dry
and i have no blow dryer!

i think i'll just go back to sleep =]
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xoxo [Jun. 7th, 2006|04:40 pm]
[Current Location |my room]
[mood - |crappycrappy]
[music - |The Black Dahlia Murder- Miasma]

hmm i haven't written anything in a long time
well i've been kind of depressed because i'm still having problems with my mom.
she keeps getting mad at me for no reason
she constantly calls me dirty lesbian which i'm not
and ugh i don't know i'm just mad


i like this guy.
hmm but i'm too shy
hopefully i'll get over my shyness soon.
i'm so shy sometimes i can't make conversation lol
but i think i'm getting over being shy atleast a little
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la la [May. 3rd, 2006|11:59 am]
[mood - |aggravatedaggravated]
[music - |Ladders to Fire- Angelwrath]

k ashlee simpson was stuck in my head

this week has been full of drama
first nessya and andrew are acting like total idiots
nessya being a racist bitch
and andrew butting in when it doesn't even concern him
i'm tired of them
i will finish this drama as soon as i see them

i'm getting blamed for rebecca and natalia's disappearence
i don't know why people keep lying and saying that they saw them with me on friday when i don't even know where they are
i'm just as worried about them as everyone else
and if i knew where they were wouldn't i tell someone?
yea i would
i was hanging out with friends on friday
they don't even know rebecca or nat...
drama drama drama

my head hurts
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(no subject) [Apr. 22nd, 2006|07:43 pm]
[mood - |hungryhow about insane?]

xxtragic error (7:40:38 PM): i think i've turned into a mean insensative bitch =\
SEX ON TOAST xD (7:41:27 PM): no you havent lol
SEX ON TOAST xD (7:41:30 PM): what made you thnk that!
xxtragic error (7:42:42 PM): cause i'm reading all my past conversations i've had with everyone since that time i went all AEOTHLAT on you and i turned back into the person i was before=\
xxtragic error (7:42:51 PM): i say things without thinking

its true...
and i hate it
because i hated the person i was before
and i hate me now
i should just go kill myself yea?
maybe then i'll fit right in with what everyone calls me 

whats wrong with me?
why am i so depressed
i'm so stupid
i can't communicate with guys
i don't know how to make conversation
i am too sensative about everything
it seems as if i'm boring
i think i am
i KNOW i am

the more and more i think about it
the more i realize that i'm just taking up space in this stupid world
i don't do anything but eat and sleep
eat and sleep
stupid bitch
what the fuck am i doing living?


whats wrong with you paola
stop being so emo
ok ok i'll stop =]

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(no subject) [Apr. 16th, 2006|02:51 pm]
yesterday hung out with danielle
went to mc donalds then sat in CVS for an hour looking at magazines with my sister lol
it was fun.
wednesday hanging out with my friend linda.
tuesday i might hang out with andrew.

i'm about to leave to go out with my parents right now
so i guess i'll end this here
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i should go die [Apr. 14th, 2006|07:18 pm]
[Current Location |my room]
[mood - |gloomygloomy]
[music - |From Autumn To Ashes- Milligram Smile]

yesterday was supposed to be fun
but my stupid uncle ruined it
he kicked rod, chris and andrew out of the house very rudely.
bianca and mariah were supposed to sleep over but they left too
oh well...

today we were supposed to hang out
so i'm waiting for bianca's phone call for 3 hours when i realize that maybe she forgot
so i call her
and she did
its ok though

i don't know why but i always feel like an outcast
everyone's always hanging out with the guys they like
and i'm walking like a mile behind them listening to music while they're all smiling and happy
people shouldn't complain and worry about what will happen in the future
they should be happy about how happy they are at the moment
live for the moment you know?

i try to live for the moment but there is nothing happy and nice that goes on in my stupid life
and i'm just tired of feeling left out and like i'm always tagging along
so i spoke to my mom and i decided...
to leave queens till september 
i'm not saying where i'm going but i'll be back in september


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